Seeing loved ones falling ill and lying helplessly on hospital beds have spurred me to buck up and to do more things that I love while I’m healthy and strong.  It’s time to pack more activities into those time after work and on weekends.

In short:

- read

- write

- shoot

- create

大人物不是太管腔，就是爱摆架子，从他们嘴里冒出来的话，都经过小心包装，也不知道前后彩排了多少遍，最后才漂漂亮亮地从呈现出来。

小人物就不一样。他们心直口快，偶尔会冒出无厘头的看法，有时会说出金玉良言。

就有这么一名教育程度只达小学六年级的受访者。她曾是名工厂女工，每月工资不到800元。

她说：“生活是很辛苦的，但是在怎么辛苦，只要开心、看得开，走过去了就很好。”

喜欢当记者，因为可以从别人身上得到力量和勇气。

你还好吗？也许你目前的日子过得不如意，但一定要记得：走过去了就很好。

真的。

I realised that after all these while, since I first started this blog in 2009, I’m still searching.

Looking for what’s suitable for me, trying to find the something that would keep me happily occupied.

I’m glad my thought processes are recorded here. It’s a good reminder for me to never give up this search, and that everytime I come back here, I’m perhaps one step closer to reaching where I want to be.

Starting with the basics, here’s a list of what I like and don’t like to do:

+ I like reading.

+ I like writing.

+ I like talking to people.

+ I like to take pictures.

+ I like to think of new ideas and creating things.

- I don’t like to manage people.

- I don’t like to follow instructions I don’t believe in.

- I don’t like to do admin stuff.

I’m thinking of a project to revamp and revitalise this blog. Definitely very much to do with the list of things I like to do.

Wish me luck and I welcome all suggestions!

Exactly a year since I stepped into my new office at J8.

Almost three months since I last blogged.

While I alternate between lamenting about my lack of time and lack of activities, I’ve hit 28.

I’ve never been much of a planner. There’s never “I want to  be ________ when I grow up” or “I want to be married by___.” or “I want to ___________ by the time I’m __.”

I’ve come to realise that I have a rather short attention span. Always flitting around, from A to B to C to A to D…. One moment I’ll be dying to do this, a few days later, the fire would be gone and I’m onto something else, or back to square one.

When I left the newsroom, I told myself (and others), it was to try something new, preferably something which would allow me to travel. When that job fell through, I went travelling, for half a year, before settling into this current job.

I wouldn’t say that I’m not happy here. There are indeed many plus points, e.g. work-life balance is something that can be hard to come by in other places.

But I still lust for something. And I don’t know how to describe this longing.

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever get right down to doing something which would keep me so occupied and so satisfied that I can do it for a long long long long time to come.

Twenty-ten is a year of explorations and changes.

The year started off with the end of a journey with my mom, then taking a plunge into the social service sector, adjusting to a completely different job scope and pace of work. Getting re-acquainted with an old friend and the unexpected romance which came with it. Sending off a few good friends to begin their new chapters overseas. Learning to spend more time with my family. Going for an unplanned trip to Southern Thailand.  

I should be contented with my lot.

May twenty-eleven be filled with more adventures. Bring it on!